GNaz

Am I really who you think I am

Monday, August 15, 2005

Ghalbeh Tarak Khordeh......I haven't been here a while. Guess there was nothing I needed to say out loud. But leave it up to love or heartbreak to bring me back here. Everyone thinks I am this strong tough chick. Little do they know that my heart is all cracked and chipped off. And I am all out of glue and tape.

Thursday, September 02, 2004

Today was a double happy day.

He called me today and told me that he saw his doctor today and the results of his biopsy indicated that he does NOT have cancer. How fabulous is that?

About an hour after that my doctor called me and told me that the lumps on my thyroid are benign as well. Talk about a sigh of relief.

"This love has taken it's toll on me,
(he) said goodbye too many times before"

I'm tired of being nice, it has gotten me nowhere
Let's see if being mean gets me somewhere

I can't believe I let society make me be disappointed in myself.
Not to worry!
I am so fucking over it.
Fuck society!
I have gained control over myself once again.

Tick Tock
Tick Tock
Tick Tock
Tick Tock
Tick Tock
etc.

It's amazing how we all feel the same (for the most part) about love, life and the world we are living in, yet we keep making the same mistakes

Monday, August 16, 2004

Isn't it obvious that I like you?
Why don't you want to be with me?
Or do you want to be with me?
Just give me a sign
I'll show you that I'm worth it

God, Please don't let it be cancer!

NOOOOO! NO! NO!
I DON'T WANT TO!

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

This has not been the best week. I have been disappointed left and right by people. I really need to work on eliminating all these expectations I have. Otherwise I am never going to be happy again!

Friday, August 06, 2004

God, why do we let others effect our moods so drastically? How is it that one word on a text message can take me from complete bliss to wanting to kill? Why are there tears all of a sudden?
No matter how much I practice breathing, these feelings are still uncontrollable.

The only thing that sucks about getting older is that you get wiser.

Wednesday, August 04, 2004

Talk all you want, but I'll only believe it when you actually do it!
My pet peev = bullshit

Friday, July 30, 2004

If you don't want me to care,
then why in hell do you share.